chapter

i've been sitting at home for the past 3 days. on the same chair. a phone on either side. obssessions of nutella infiltrating my thoughts. i've read all the news in the whole world. i've imagined my allergy coming back. i've analyzed everything into nothingness. i've thought of calling many people. i called only a few. i spoke with him for an hour and 10 minutes. but i was not happy with that. i doodled. i opened many many windows (internet). i read my archives all over again. i analyzed my archives all over again. i cringed at some of the posts i've written but did not erase them as testimony to how mediocre i can be. this post will be another testimony.
i'm in pain. i've been napping continuously and uninterruptedly. i have a memory and something about it scares me. i do not know if it really happened or if i dreamed it. seriously.
ok my break is over.
i think the bible took less time to write (than my freaking chapter)
time out